Mental Dance

Dancing shouldn't give you time to think
It's all about feeling and unfortunately
feeling is worse than thinking
because it hurts more
when you can't explain why

I've never been like you
and I never will be
I don't think I even can be
but that doesn't mean
I don't remember you
because I do

I remember so many things

They tell me that
it's better to have loved and lost
than never loved at all
but I'm not sure I agree
If we never loved at all
we wouldn't know what we lost
and then it wouldn't hurt as much
Or it wouldn't hurt at all
and if all we felt was apathy
there would never be anything else
to brutally tear us apart because
we would never know the difference

That's why possibilities
are the world's greatest tragedy
We know what is and what is not
but those are so different from
what is and what could have been

Nightmare

I dreamt last night that I was taken away,
Part of an unpopular plan for population reduction.
As I faced the prospect of imminent death,
Of my lungs gasping for air and never being filled,
I thought of all the words I'd left unsaid,
All the poems I'd never finished writing and would never be able to,
Of the goodbyes I wasn't ready to say
And I was scared that I was wrong.
That there is nothing after this
Except an inevitable oblivion.
Because if nothing comes next
Then there's a reason to be scared
Because the goodbyes I didn't have time to say would be meaningless
And the poems in my head would remain eternally unwritten
And you would never hear the words I had waited to say.
And I gasped, feeling like my lungs wouldn't fill with air no matter how hard I tried.
But though the prospect of imminent death is real,
There is no plan for population reduction.
It was just something I dreamt last night.