Long Time Since

It's been a long time since a lot of things.

Since I went to a high school dance, 
since I felt safe, 
since I cried long and hard.

I cried in a Walmart parking lot one night
after a particularly terrible shift at work. 
And after my parents found out what I'd been doing the night before. 
I cried the first and second time I watched 
The Fault In Our Stars. 
I cried when I watched my aunt put her baby in the ground. 

But I didn't cry when I moved out. 
I didn't cry when I lost my faith, 
and I didn't cry when he left.

It's been a long time since I cried. 
But then again, 
it's been a long time since a lot of things.