An Interaction

Hello,
what's your name?
It's so nice to meet you,
even though I know this one conversation
will tell you nothing important about me.

I stepped way outside my comfort zone
to come to this function,
even though I have plenty of other things
that I could be doing.
Like avoiding social anxiety.

What do I have to lose by being here?
My sister says that if people don't
want to be around me,
then they aren't worth my time anyway.
Do you think you're worth my time?
Because I want to believe she's right.

But now I'm just rambling.

Can you tell that I'm out of the loop?
I generally don't talk to people;
instead I stand by the wall or my roommates
and don't bring myself to talk.
I'm trying to change that, but
it's hard work, you know.
Or do you? You seem to know what you're doing,
but maybe that's just my perception.
Do you know the meaning
of traded sweatpants,
juggled oranges,
mild conversations
and fake fights?
I imagine they mean friendship,
but I'm not really sure.

Let's never meet again,
and I'll be okay with that.
Sorry.